For Christmas, Ben got me a book called Your Baby in Pictures by Me Ra Koh. I don’t know a lot about photography and I only own a point and shoot camera, but do love to take pictures. One thing I like about this book is that it gives specific instructions for taking photos with DSLR as well as point and shoot cameras, so I don’t feel left out as a point and shoot owner! It has also motivated me to get out my camera manual and I’ve realized that even my relatively simple camera has a lot of functions that I had no idea about.
I know that this phase of Aiden’s life will go so fast. He won’t be a baby for very long and I find myself staring at him, willing myself to soak in what he looks like, smells like and feels like at this time. I love to watch the expressions on his face and the movements of his little limbs.
I want to capture him in images (and video) because not only will it help me hold on to memories I might otherwise forget, it also helps me be really present right now as I’m trying to capture him as best I can.
One thing I didn’t anticipate about motherhood is that I’d be even more aware of how fleeting time is. He’s one month old tomorrow and it has flown by, but at the same time has also felt rich and deep. Some days feel long – Ben works 10 hour days and that can be a long time to be home alone with a baby on the days when it’s just Aiden and I. But sometimes I stop and wonder where the days go. Soak it in, soak in the goodness, I want to tell myself, even when it’s hard.